Lord, it blows my mind when I think of all the countless ways you've blessed my life. And those are just the ones I'm aware of. Someday I'll realize them all, and I'm sure I'll be speechless. Or perhaps I'll have the perfect words.
Not only have you chosen and predestined me to be in relationship with you, to be an heir to your kingdom, but in this life - this miniscule blip in the span of eternity - you have blessed my socks off. You know better than anyone that I've not done a single thing to deserve it, and sometimes I continue to fail to live up to my position as your child. Forgive me, God.
I do not know how to change myself. I beg of you to change me. Change my mind - renew it. I need you.
With all the blessings You've given me in this life, Father, I frequently fall into the trap of attachment. I love the people and the experiences I have here on this planet. But I choose from this day forward to lead my heart and lead my desires so that what I want more than anything else is you. I want your presence, and I need your power and love. I desire a great many things for my life and for myself and for the people I love and care about. But I choose to desire to be in your presence, and for your presence to be in this world. It's not easy. It won't be easy, and I beg forgiveness, God, for when my mind's eye wanders.
You have so many promises in your word - I know Paul was plagued by an unknown sin, and I know that you do not look on the outward appearance, but at my heart. I know that you do not bless and fill the righteous - but those who hunger for You, who thirst for Your righteousness. I should take heart at these and more, but I can but see my failings. Help me to understand Your love, to see myself through your eyes.
God I love you so much....come into my life and revolutionize it. I don't know that I can lessen how much I seek the amazing things you've placed in my life, but I do choose to seek you above all those other things. Place a hunger and a thirst and a desperate longing in my soul for you. I beg. Come Lord Jesus, enter my innermost being.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord."
